Hanging out with Dana Linn Bailey

I went to see her another time. We talked about stuff (life in general and the abilities to bring dreams to life just by living them out...)

She gave me a hug and we parted ways.
For some reason, her hair was a mess. And I mean it was horrible. Her hairdresser had cut a bit off from the front. It kept sticking out and she felt bad about it.

We didn't discuss it...

I wonder what my dream was trying to say... :)

Playing Ninjas with Dana Linn Bailey

They had a big party last night... at the Warhouse Gym.
I met Dana again and we talked excitedly about their new play areas that had big metal swings hanging from the roof and large areas of trampolines and soft mattresses where people could jump around and do tricks :)

Dana said that the Key to her happiness in bodybuilding (and life in general) was the Feeling of freedom that she had when she swung high up in the air and didn't let herself fall... her arms hurt and she felt sick sometimes but she never quit when it got hard, she always stayed up there until She Was Ready to come down. She never came back down if she felt bad or sick, she always enjoyed her stay up there and that's why she kept going back. That's what kept her hungry for more.
:)

I asked: "But isn't it a constant struggle then? Don't you wish it could be easier and don't you miss the feeling of just letting go of everything and just flying through the air (for a short while)?"

Dana: "No, that's not what it's about, no no no... what I do up there might feel hard on the joints at first but the point IS to let go of the hurt! The point IS to stop focusing on the circumstances and the situation and... START focusing on the Feelings you have up there! It's actually a wonderful way to teach yourself to think more clearly and to Focus on just ONE THING. What ever you choose it to be... and don't worry if you fall or if your mind wanders. It's all good. You can't get it wrong and you'll never get it done. Right ;)"

Me: "Right! :)"

How to be sick in style

Don't allow anyone to put pants on ya.

Refuse help.

Pass out wherever.

Stay optimistic that if it is cerial you want it is cerial you get, on every meal...

Natzies and "dying"

The dream changed me for good...

I've been worried about death these last years. Maybe the last 3-4 years. I'm not worried I'll get it wrong or fxck it up somehow, I'm just having (or WAS having) problems with Feeling OK about "losing and being lost". I miss some people that have made the transfer back to nonphysical. I know they are Perfectly happy and I should be too, but I still cry sometimes and I don't understand Why...
Until I listened to a tape where a woman told me in plain English that my crying is just a sign of "letting go of resistance": My thoughts are not what I feel deep inside me, so to let go of those "lies" (I have lost loved ones and they cannot reach me either) I need more time to shift my belief and more relaxation to allow the real truth to come out.

Like I said : my DREAM, last night, showed me I am ready, now.

It had been a long day and night. We had climbed up the mountain side to the beautiful gray castle, "The Sleeping Bride" it was called... and we were there to blow her up. All the bombs had been prepped and we had the timers in our hands when the Natzies found us in their wine cellar.
20 Natzies. No way out. Just a shit-load of explosives and the two of us holding the key to doom.

It took us but a second to decide:"Yes, we're blowing us all up..." I was there with a man. The best agent in his field. I trusted him. I remember even having warm feelings for him the moment before we died (or was it after...). He was someone who I Enjoyed sharing this end with.
I remember being hunched down behind some wine barrels with an old climbing helmet on. It felt stupid to have a helmet on but we were supposed to climb back down after we had finished our task. I kept my head to the ground and wished for a swift and painless end. As the first waves of pressure and fire blew over us, I had time to push against them with my feet but as I heard my friend say :"I think I'm a bit scared." We were already floating in white light and everything was alright. Everything was perfect. Everything was all Love.
We were home again. We were awake again.
And we were together.
Our energies were pure and Joyful.

The dream never showed me the Natzies that blew up with us but I know everyone comes back to the white light. We do not carry Anything back there. No luggage. No past. Nothing to declare. Nothing to forgive. All is remembered and all is good.

Meditation as a habit

Excellent....

I can breathe myself to calmness and soft feelings in just a couple of minutes.
I can put the outside noises into bubbles and send them away.
I can reach a sensation of clarity and joy.

I can do this every day.

:)

I'm much happier when I meditate once a day for a few minutes (5-15min).

Full body freak show while meditating

Coming soon...

Something Really freaky happened last time (meditating just before bed time). I'm gonna try it again today.

If you don't hear from me, I probably "went in to the light..."

;)

Delts and metal

Here's a stretch/massage I came up with since I'm soooooo alone at the gym and soooooo eager to find new solutions to help myself...

The Pictures will explain it.

Head movements while meditating

I listen to ~15min guided meditations every week. (I sit up for these. When I'm meditating on my own, in a quiet room, I usually lie down.)
I've started to pay attention to uncontrollable head movements that I sometimes have.
It's a strong nodding movement and it always comes at a point in the guided meditation where I totally agree and love what I'm listening to AND the words I'm hearing are about a (strong) question I have in my mind.

It is a safe feeling and a very good feeling. It's pure Love (in my opinion). If someone were observing me they would wonder if I'm just doing it spontaneously because I'm feeling the message (spoken on the meditation tape) and smiling to it.

But no. I'm both wide awake and in deep meditation.
I'm tuned in, tapped in and turned on.

I'll try it again tomorrow and videotape myself ;)

Stick a fork in the moment

I look like I got ran over by a truck full of sumo wrestlers sometimes. ..

But the feeling after a long/hard work out is never something that needs all the right words.

It's a great feeling. 

And it adds to the hunger to do it again and again. 

The best knify-knife

It's not the sharpest, it's not the prettiest but I always go with my old "army knife".

It's good for cutting branches, chopping wood, basic cooking and other stuff...

I got it from dear old dad half a life time ago.
It's the best.

;)

The Meaning of Life

It is JOY.

Life is about feeling joy.
My life is about feeling joy and living the way that I will feel joy all the time.

I'm getting there... I am really good at it these days.
I wasn't always. I used to live like "others do"; I believed in old sayings and I thought that being a realist was the norm (and I'm not one). I used to think that there must always be struggling and pain. I used to think that there is a source of evil in the universe that equals the amount of good we see.
I used to think that we are all we are (plus some separate ghost that we call a soul) and that our past and future hold just as much power as Now.
I used to think that there's always something bad on the way if things go well for a long time.
I sed to think like a fxcking idiot.

Life is Joy. My reason for living is Joy.
There is no source of evil. There is only Love and the resistance of love.

Don't resist it. Take it All in. It's all Love ;)

You'll feel it.
And it feels sooooo good.

Happiness is inspiring

I've been getting all sorts of ideas these days since I'm so happy all the time :)

Ideas for my next businesses and ideas to help other people with their businesses... I've even started a couple of them and they are doing quite well :)

I took a minute last night to Really THINK about my life (yes, it actually only did take just one minute... I'm not very old.) and I felt So Blessed and Happy!
I have Everything I need! I have it All!
Heheee.... gosh. It felt really, really good to see it and believe it.
And yet, I want to explore and expand my "ring of life and love."

And this is all possible for everyone else, too.
There is no "lucky 1%" in the world who get it all. It's actually the "lucky 100%"!
We are all born with the same force within ourselves and it's up to Us, yes you too, to make the decision to Use that God - given talent! ;)

So Have Great Day and Enjoy Your Life.
Since You are the Creator of your own Reality. ❤

Love,
M.

How to breathe yourself a killer six pack

https://www.facebook.com/koulutettuhierojamiiah/videos/1617658898524582/

Something you might enjoy doing BEFORE breakfast ;)

It's just one thing

Attitude.
:)

Make it a good one.

Think-Focus-Live

I think so much these days that I wear myself out.
I'm so tired some days that I need more than 12h of sleep at night.
I listen to motivational videos and lectures on YouTube... I Think about my life and Why I want the things that I want.
I enjoy every day of my life and I Live every day in Love with my life.

And I'm exhausted. :)

But So Happy.

How... how can this be?

Well...
First I THINK.
I choose what I want and why.

Then I Focus on the Good. On All the good I already have. That's all.
Forget about the rest. It's unimportant.

The last thing to do is to relax and allow it to come. All the good. I want good things, I have good things and I want it to stay that way.

So I live in Goodness.
I live like I want to live.

;)

Try it.
It's so gooood.... :D

The corner piece in the puzzle

I woke up last night with a thought in my mind.
"I am the corner piece."

I totally GOT IT.

A corner piece is one of the first pieces people look for when they are starting a puzzle. It is a place in the picture that will lead to the sides as well as the mid bits of the picture they want to build.

I want to build a better world for (just about) everyone.
So in MY life I MUST be the corner piece. The point of all beginning. Me.

It's my life.

So I'll make it huge ;)

Puuhh...

The public gym smells like an abused sock...

I hope Somebody really had a big one today.

Jeezzzz...

😬

Motorbike

Since I sold my old bike I've had a constant daydream about getting a new one.
Something old or old looking...
Café racers do the trick.

Beautiful design meets, well, a motorcycle. :)

I can't say much about the rideability but it was never (all) about safety with my first one either.

***

I like my engines naked.

I'm more an Enjoyment rider than a Gonna ride no matter what -rider.
I don't look for trouble when I'm out on two wheels but sometimes it has found me ;)

This pic of Ryan on a bike in South Africa  (movie set, Safe house) really moves me. I love the change of light and shadow behind him and the relaxed position he's in. The colours are warm and the retro feel of the picture really woke up my imagination today.

I need an engine to ride ;)

Recovery

Attitude.
Now there's a word that has a nice ring to it.
Maybe you feel the same way or maybe your understanding of the word is different.

Where ever you are in your understanding of Attitude please let it be a positive word in your life :)
Let it rule your days and make a difference in your future life ;)

Begin your day with a good attitude and be grateful for what you have: a new day!
And yes, it's All Yours! ;)

Keep your attitude fresh and happy. Don't let others rain on your beautiful day/life.
They have no business walking over other people's happy moments.

Attitude.
If you get mangled or stomped on Just Get Up! :)
It nothing more but your attitude that eventually lifts you up from just anything.
Be happy where you are now and soon you'll notice that you are happy where ever you want to be ;)

And if you're anything like me: watch Deadpool and go into a trance for weeks :D
Gosh I have to listen to its soundtrack everyday and watch the movie every week <3
(I might have a thing for Ryan, too.)

Kiddo is on his third

It's been more than 2 years now...
Kiddo is a happy little guy :)

He runs around a lot. ...
Yesterday was his birthday.
He felt hot and tired.

I guess he got something from "work" or whatever??
He seems much better today so we're still having friends and relatives this weekend :)

Flat beginning

I'm still fighting to get back in shape.
I'm doing better than ever but I see a flat back when I look in the mirror.

No worries though. ... got a plan in action already  ;)

Keep following and I might tell ya what I'm up to....

56kg in pics

I feel hungry all the time.

It's normal. I eat too little  :)

I put eggs back on the menu. And porridge. 

It should help...?

I'm selling my squat rack. I'll get a bigger one. The kind that has a pulley system attached...

Oh my :) 

Oh joy ;)

It's time to get nasty again.

The new man

There's a new man in my life...

I see him now and then. I'm not sure what his name is but he sure looks familiar. 

Last night I wondered if I could find an app that would allow me to see my face as a man. 

I remembered a tv show about women who changed their sex with hormones. I'm sure the "same" could be done with a computer. 

Maybe the man that keeps finding his way into my dreams is actually Me?

Like I said : he sure looks familiar. 

And he seems to love kiddo <3

:)

Who is Bob Proctor

Coming soon...

How to shake off the limitations in your life

Wayne Dyer's book on being a limitless person (or a person without borders or restrictions or all that...) really touched me!

I read it in Finnish so I'm not sure how to translate everything in its purest form but hey: "when we turn visions and thoughts into words and sounds we change the vision or thought every time :)"

More on this coming soon.. kiddo just fell asleep and I have to do some other stuff than sit around the computer... so see you soon!

...more to come this weekend.



I'll be talking about this Goal achiever summit as well:

GOAL ACHIEVER LIVE STREAM

Our reward in life will always match our service

This blog is going to change soon... not much.
I'm still going to focus on getting stronger  (mind and body) but I'll throw in some nature stuff and survival tips.

I'll get down in the dirt with ideas that excite me and make me giggle inside and I'll test products or at least bring to your focus some of the new stuff out there (in the world of hunting and sports). So you can check them out and learn more of 'em.

Feel free to comment if you have hopes or dreams about seeing/reading about specific guns, knives, workouts, long bike rides, camping sites, survival tips, tents etc.

By next year this blog will grow even more ;)

A weak back and abs

Since I only weigh around 56kg these mornings I feel weak when it comes to chin ups and sorts...


So.




I started doing chin ups daily. I keep my legs Straight so my whole body is straight and stiff. I keep my arms wide and my palms face forward. I do not touch the ground between lifts.


It's so hard :D




Right now I can do 2. Then I have to take a breather and rest after every single one. I aim for 10 per day. But ALL of them are those "perfect" stiff versions.


Why?




Because I can. And because I'm looking for strength right now. I need to get my bench press back to 60kg (and higher). I'm stuck at 52,5kg and it's annoying :D


I look good but I'm not strong so I keep fighting. After this week I'll practice 3 times a week and I'll be ready by the time I hit 20 reps ;)


By then we'll see how gigantic my bench press max will be XD




My abs feel tight and unhappy, too. It's time to give them some attention they haven't gotten for months now. I'm giving myself 13 days to get them in line and back to supporting my torso. I'm using short exercises and mostly clever breathing. I'm also stretching my thighs and glutes daily. It doesn't even take much time. Mostly just 5min after a shower or before bed.
(Yesterday I did my stretches at work while waiting for the copying machine to spit out my material.)


It's too late to any stretches in bed :) I usually just forget about everything when the pillow hits my head...

Drop the act. Get Results that STICK!

(edit later)

How often have you told yourself (this year) that you love YOU?

Can you even say it?

I couldn't. Not for years I think...

I couldn't even whisper it in the sauna... but I got sick of living like that. I got sick of not being enough for everyone, I got sick of being told how to act and how to live...

I got a kick in the butt from my good friend and I suddenly dropped the act.

No one ever really told me how to live. NO one ever really thought bad things about me, atleast they didn't have the guts to say it to my face ;)

So what the fxck was wrong with my life?

Nothing.

Nothing has ever been wrong with anything. Everything is and will be as perfect as I am. We are all perfect beings and we DECIDE how we feel about things and circumstances and people... We MAKE the world around us.

So if nothing was wrong why did I sometimes feel not worthy and sometimes laugh my head off and live like a queen? Well... that's just the way I had learned to live. Being a Finn I'm expected to suffer like crazy now and then and being a female I'm supposed to have bad days. What a bunch of BS! ...but I ate it all and asked for more.

No more :)

Find your calling in life, forgive yourself for all the shit you've been through and drop the act. YOU are not a victim. You MUST and WILL take 100% control of YOUR life and start to enjoy it to the fullest!

Check out some of the blog texts on http://www.proctorgallagherinstitute.com/blog

and start your journey toward a more fulfilling and grateful life ;)

I promise it will be worth it.

<3

If you want to check out some of their programs on self improvement go check this out:

GET RESULTS THAT STICK

It will not cost a thing. Listen to the videos and start taking extra care of your life. It's the only one you'll probably have, for a while now.

"It takes six minutes to success" to make a difference in your days.. I like it. I've been listening to the videos even while I workout and reading about the stuff they talk about all year now. It's really worth putting your mind into and even more, it's really relaxing to start to understand that it only takes a few, simple, little steps to make a huge start and a big difference in you life.

You CAN feel better every day if you simply choose to live that way!




Get results you'll love to share!





:D

Do this small change and live your life to the max

Gratefullness...
Start your day Grateful for what you are about to receive and end your day grateful for the Good that you experienced as well as for the things you learned.

Never look back in sorrow or anger. Live in the moment and Enjoy life.

Give yourself Time to relax and to be You.
You do not have to do all that stuff that you think you are expected to do.
Relax. Choose for yourself and choose helping others with a smile on your face :)

Life will not end if you take a breather.
Relax and be grateful.

;)

Open

Wayne W. Dyer is one of my favourite writers right now :)
He excites me and really pushes me on 'n' on and Out!

One of my top priorities this year is to break free from my (personal) limitations and Open my Gifts (use my talents and enjoy life the way only I can enjoy it) :)

One way to feel happy but not satisfied is to drop Everything that is Not bringing you Genuine joy.
Drop TV, drop spending time with idiot friends (who make you feel sick or unloved), drop feeling sorry for yourself and stop blaming others for your life's problems.

;)

A night with Mr. Spock

I spent last night with Mr. Spock.
I haven't really talked to him before so I was quite surprised to find him in my bed. We slept really well and had the most exciting talks when we woke up.

https://www.google.fi/

We were on a cruise (again... I should go on a real one since I see dreams about it all the time) and all the rooms were overbooked. Actually, I had heard that Captain Picard was there too and most of the crew from USS Enterprise. I was really hoping to find a chance to talk to some of them. I really wanted to thank them for helping me find my place in the solar system :)

My talks with Spock were mostly very calm and about the characteristics of "humans in bounds". We didn't go into detail about which humans we were talking about but I understood that he wanted to get his message clear: "No one, no man or woman, will ever be happy and free if they live their lives strictly by the guidelines of others."

Later last night I was sitting in a helicopter (MI-8) and we were just rolling down the streets of a big city. The engines were off and we had some kinds of battery operated, special wheels that moved us forward. There were hundreds of buttons and switches all over the cockpit and passenger area. Most of us were old mechanics and felt the need to keep touching the buttons and talking about the fun memories we had with that old lady (I think it was HS-5)... Before we arrived at our destination, I climbed upstairs (it seemed to be a double-decker bus type of a helicopter) and got a few bottles of red wine to go. There were a lot of bottles and old oil paintings up there. It even seemed that someone lived there. I saw a bed and a stack of books by the window. I remember wondering out loud "now what kind of person would choose to live in a moving vehicle and collect all this stuff just so they could give it away for free?" :)
I woke up with a smile.

It sure was nice to talk with Mr. Spock. He was really fit! Gosh, he must have been only a hundred years old or something ;)
Great pecs on a Vulcan <3

Super human

"If I want to be Free I have to be Me."

I've kept the habit of eating between 11am and 8pm. Once a week I eat whatever and whenever... usually between 9am and 9pm. This has worked WELL. I've lost fat, I feel good and I don't have to worry about drinking coffee through the day, I just have a couple of cups in the morning... sometimes two more later in the day. Food is good, it has a taste and I'm not bloated or in pain for eating fun stuff every now and then :)

My point is that by NOT scheduling most of my day with different snacks and things to do with my mouth I can test my theory on "not controlling my time but controlling my actions" as a means to a more fulfilling lifestyle and a more giving way to live.

Sure, just by eating like a wolf few times a day doesn't make all the difference but right now I'm all in when it's about Finding and Testing new ways to better the lives of Others around me. I'm not doing ALL this just to have a nicer corner in My life but to give Others in my life and around my life a chance to see a better me and a more thankful me ;)

Eventually, the feeling of thankfulness and happiness will stick. My positive energy will not go to waste :)

So we drift into my workouts now... I'm still at it with the "squat. every. day." program. I'm well into my second week and it has worked just fine with me. I mostly do the workout right after work or around lunch time. If I have to do it after 7pm I usually push my last meal of the day as far as I have to. I don't need to hurt myself by sticking to a schedule that doesn't work every day. I can DO whatever I want. That said, I can BE whoever I want and HAVE whatever I want :)

It's all up to Me and My abilities.

It's the same with you!

Never tell yourself that you "can't" or "probably can't". Just BE the person you want to be. Don't slow down - - - Calm down.

The program:

http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/cory-gregory-squat-every-day.html

I encourage you to try crazy stuff like this in your life Don't do it with anger or pain. Just have fun and see where the journey takes you. I'm positive that you will find a new way to look at life in general if you just move out of your box and climb out of your foxhole ;)

Have fun and stop blaming others for your boring life ;)

You know what I'm talking about.

It's been a long time...

...since we last met.

I'm spending a week with some old friends.

<3

The secret to Making money with writing online

Jep...
It can be done.
Working from home.


I've read a bunch of books on this subject and tried out some weird stuff in my youth... it's not that easy to get your book or short stories published in the old school way (on paper) but it doesn't actually take THAT MUCH to get it out as an ebook!!!

:D

I urge You to check this out on your own. It really doesn't matter if You live in the EU or the USA or somewhere else... Ebooks are everywhere and especially restaurant critics need to travel all over the place to eat out ;)

Believe in yourself and make the commitment! WRITE :)

How I get through a shitty morning

Kiddo wouldn't sleep.
He Would: dig around the boxes and drawers he's not allowed to use.
He Would: play with everything and scream like crazy 'cause he's so Happy and cheerful.
He Would: drive me crazy 'cause I can't do anything "personal" like work on the computer or clean or go to the toilet in peace...

So what do I do...
Well, I keep kiddo happy (number 1 rule) however I can (many ways) and then I help him to nap and...

...then I watch Commando :D

Some of the books I'm reading right now

I saw a long documentary about Dr. Wayne Dyer when we lived in New Orleans. I fell in love with his teachings.

The other pic is from just a minute ago. There's a bear roaming around  (wayyyy) south from here.  

Photo shoot

I had another photo shoot today... oh how I LOVE photo shoots! !!

My favourite photographer Sofia Virtanen from Hamina did the work.
We stayed inside for this one.

I just love working with her.
She is Amazing! 

She can make me look like a goddess every time!  :)

The theme was burlesque.
I had a killer corset on and high-high heels  <3

How to Save a Marriage?

I’m quite married… to myself.

It’s a horrible fight sometimes to keep myself happy. Most of the time it would just be easier to have a guide book or a long stick to keep Me out of my way…

Just like today. I got a ton of stuff done BUT it took forever and eventually (when I REALLY looked at what I had done…) it didn’t seem like much.

I had been stuck to the frelling computer  for hours (!) and I hadn’t made much more than a mess…

I felt like shit.

I didn’t want to talk about it with my husband.

Who would?

But WAIT! I have to share my life with him! It’s the whole POINT of Living together!

So there I sat… waiting for him to come home and feeling like shit. I spent most of the day online and got nothing done. I thought I found a new way to shop and save money but all my good leads got cut off by some stupid “we’re not interested in non-American’s…”

That got me thinking: What if I would spend the rest of my time (about 2 hours) to fix as much as I could by making him dinner, feeling good about him coming home and remembering all the good things in life (we have many, You do too!)

I felt much better and I’m sure you would, too 

My worries melted away and by feeling Grateful about the Good things in life I could concentrate on fixing whatever I felt like was wrong. My problems simply melted away!

How I survived my joint pains after giving birth

I didn't give birth the natural way of waiting 'til the end and popping the baby out in any way I could.

We had a cesarian.
:)

It didn't cause any problems. Actually, I believe it was the safest and most precise birthing I could have ever had. It was clear from the start that I was getting a planned operation. Not a rushed operation. :)

Thank gosh, I got it.

Nursing was really not my thing but I practised and kiddo loved it so we kept at it and he got his milk until he was about 7 months old... from there on I started bottle feeding him (he was bottle fed from the start, too, so it was nothing new to him) and I started getting HORRIBLE joint pains in my wrists and shoulders and hips (?!) and BACK. It was just too much to cuddle him every few hours, But kiddo LOVED being held and We loved having him close... so I tried and tried but changing the way I hold him or the side he was on or biting my lip... nothing helped 'cause I was WEAK to the CORE. Sure I was fit as a cat but after the cesarian, I took 1,5 months off from everything and just ate right and went on walks. I loved the way my body was coming back but I didn't love the way I had NO TIME to get out of the house every day and get FITTER and BETTER.

I tried a lot of different "quick tricks" and changed my diet around every month but eventually, it was in the SMALL MUSCLES and LITTLE MOVEMENTS that saved my body from going totally chronicle...

Yoga and Pilates helped me in more ways than I can even admit to myself... After all that bodybuilding and eating like an animal and being crazy and loud... after all that and having a wonderful little boy--- this mother turned into a New Mom.

And I keep living that New Mom life every day :)

So DO NOT give up if you are suffering from joint pains or your loved one is (but doesn't have the guts to admit it). The movements "of a neutral spine" can and WILL help anyone, man or woman, even children, to focus on the little muscles that we all need to support our body!

Never give up and always stay thankful about your Good Day!
:)

Some more home spa stuff!

I tested the "olive oil and coffee" thigh and butt treatment.
The shower was slippery as HELL but it felt great and I am going to do it again next week :)

I mixed coffee (the basic grains) with olive oil and just rubbed it to my thighs and glutes in the shower. Then I washed myself and I washed the shower and walls and kiddo and the stuff I had used (a cup and a spoon)...

Never the less I felt great that night and in the morning my legs were still shining like brand new (from the oil)!


Have great day/night everyone!!!
;)

Home spa

I've been testing stuff I've found on the interweb.
Like "DIY at home sugar waxing" and "baking soda as a skin cleaner"...

The instructions are on youtube. You'll find many.

My results with the sugar wax were:
Doesn't work. Not a chance.

The coconut oil + baking soda (+ some lemon juice) tests have worked well. It leaves my skin feeling fresh, soft and clean for the rest of the day :)
I think I even look better and I feel better, too ;)

It's my Birthday and I'm Celebrating it with Rob Bailey!

So I'm 40-ish...
Well, now I float somewhere over there in the mid bits of my potential lifeline...
It has been said and often proven that the MOST effective and glorious time in a person's life is between 40 and 60 (give or take a decade).

So I'm closing in on the golden pot!!! :D
I have 38 loops behind me and all I have to do is circle the sun ONE MORE TIME and I can start on my 40th loop-de-loop!!! JEEEEEEEE!!! :D

I got breakfast in bed this morning.
I had just finished a dream with Rob Bailey where he showed me some stuff NO-ONE knows yet!
I love this when I get to see his world before he publishes it... I've had dreams like this before and it is really FREAKY when the stuff actually happens in real life! Kind of scary, too.

I can tell you some of the stuff but I'll keep to myself the really cool stuff that I want to see happen later.

In my dream, I sent Rob a WhatsApp message asking him how he was feeling and what he had been doing today. I knew he's a busy man so I wasn't expecting him to answer but he actually called me back on video and we talked for a while. He was at Flag nor Fail and he showed me the new line of prints he had been working on for a while now. It was "just" prints but I knew the message on the shirts was far greater than just the words printed on them. He was getting ready to edit a video explaining the messages and thoughts that created the prints.

I remember how EXCITED he was :)
He was tired and he had been up for several nights working on his passion. He was so happy and "drunk on life" that I got all excited  :)
(I felt like a hundred million bucks after I woke up this morning.)

The prints were awesome. The message was clear and short. But it took Rob an hour to explain it on his youtube channel --> He kept wondering off to other subjects and his cameraman didn't really stop him. But the longer video actually helped. People could REALLY SEE and HEAR how much work a man can put into his dreams when he REALLY wants to make a point in life!

There's a big change coming and I feel privileged to be in the front line when it comes :)
Before the call ended I saw what Rob's public life looked like in the future. He has an exciting future floating closer and closer and there's no doubt about it. This "big secret" I'll keep to myself. Just like I'll keep to myself the prints he has coming out. They might not be the NEXT prints but I'll keep my eyes open and simply wait. They are coming.

My dreams are my dreams. My energy waves INSIDE my brain. But who knows, RB might be seeing the same dreams ;)

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My car is better than Rob Bailey's RV -so what

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My obsession with people and things are nothing small...

The electric car that BMW is working on and producing has gotten my eye... (it can be bought -used- here in Finland for about 150 000€)

I love the i8.

I want it in white and with a female computer that will greet me every time I enter the car :)
:D

Dream big, get obsessed and create your own reality!

I was just talking to Rob Bailey in a dream about a month ago and he said something that doesn't really open up here but in my mind, he opened a new door.

We were standing around in a street. I think it was outside his Warhouse Gym.

I asked him how cold the weather was. He said it was probably +2 or +4 degrees Celsius.

I looked at my white i8 that I had parked next to Rob's old and rundown RV (hah!) and wondered:

"Do you think my car will start?"

Rob: "Of course."

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It was the tone of his voice that really made the DIFFERENCE.

He KNEW my car would start. He wasn't guessing or being polite.

It's exactly that kind of thinking that I get from Rob. He mentors me into becoming my OWN success story. I don't have to care about what others think or about "their crap, misfortunes or success". None of that matters in MY life. 

My life is what I make of it. I should not GUESS how to live it. I will just do my BEST and enjoy the rest ;)

That's why I love him <3

I am obsessed with Rob Bailey (Flag nor Fail)

Some people just walk into my life and I let them stay. I just can't get away from them.
They are too perfect, too similar, and too addictive.

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I used to think of Rob as a "loud and mysterious man who likes to make a lot of noise and take up a lot of room". I didn't like him at first. I remember telling myself "I hope he fades off into the darkness behind his wife Dana..."

I'm glad he didn't. As a matter of fact, he's now one of the most important people in my life. He  has been a "mentor" to me for a while now.
I tried dropping him last year and this winter but for some reason, he always comes back. Often in dreams and sometimes by accident when I realise I really need to hear from him (I follow his youtube channel: killrobbailey).

I tried dropping him because One has to be willing to make BIG changes in her life to become a better person. So this winter I dropped EVERYTHING for a second. Not at once but during a timeline of several weeks. It was a rehearsal and IT WORKS. It's a mental thing and that is all that the brain needs. It will not know the difference between a real emotion and a self-made one. It will act upon anything I tell it to do and I told it to do some really crazy shit.
Let's just say that "I finally fxcking CLEANED UP!"
:D

So why did I take the risk of DROPPING something I already know I'm obsessed with?
--> like I said earlier: (the one that matters) always comes back.
A lot of other things came back too, right the next second. There was no doubt in my mind about it.

Some of my dreams with Rob are mostly long talks and drinking coffee or just sitting outside on a balcony watching other people go about their lives. We smile a lot.

In one dream about 2 months ago, I was standing around on a junk planet and watching a giant trash mill eat up big trucks and old trains. It was like a whirlwind of death and destruction for old crap. The size of the rotating machine was about the size of a football super dome. We had to stand half a mile away on a hill. The day was warm but the winds were acting up. Sand flew and the sounds of screeching and small explotions reached us lightly as whispers.
Rob was there with Dana and I had two friends with me.
Dana wanted to get home so Rob said bye and turned. One of my friends turned and whispered to Rob:
"You should go check out those guys at the gym in Australia..."
Rob didn't hear him so he asked:
"Aa... say what?"
My friend switched to some kind of tired Finnish and mumbled:
"Käyhä poeka kattoo ne äijät aussien salill..."
Rob smiled and thanked him even though he clearly didn't understand what had been said.
For some reason, my friends didn't like having Rob there...

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How dumping my fitness goals set me free:

It WAS one of the hardest things to do. WAS...

Letting go is never easy.

But the Minute I let go, and I Meant it, I felt a breeze of fresh air in my lungs! The same day I took a late shower and stood in front of the mirror like I always did. 

(I had to wait for the water to turn warm.) 

That night and every day since I saw myself with completely different eyes :)

I saw the beauty in me and the perfection that has always been ME.

I AM PERFECT.
I was so stunned about this new feeling of love that I felt that I just had to try it: I said to myself "I love me."

I felt Great!

 It didn't kill me. I didn't have to lie. 

I was completely FINE with myself AND my body.

I was perfect in every way <3

I was the same perfect little baby that I had been when I was born. Just a little bit bigger.

50% of what we see are (just) the pictures that our MIND gives us through the gateways of our senses. We see (feel, hear etc.) the world, yes, and it's always a bit different than the world our friends or family see.

The other 50% of our world is what our brain sees... it fills in the blanks and "the usual stuff". That's why we don't see the new dress on our wife or the different colour in her hair. That's why we forget to buy milk or lock the car... our brain fills in here and there and it also fills in for emotions. It sees the usual stuff that used to make us feel bad and it makes us STILL feel bad when we see the stuff again. Like a body that lost 30kg of fat or a dog that bit us 30 years ago.

The brain remembers and it should NOT be let to run the show.

Let GO of the old stuff and look at every moment like it truly was your FIRST time. It will not take any more time but you will feel EXITED and HAPPY! :)

Get excited about being alive and experience your life and loves like a newborn. With every movement of your arms and legs :D 

Enjoy life

and you will be SO much happier.

Start today. 

It might "hurt" to smile at first but you'll get the hang of it ;)

I promise <3 

How now brown cow

I've been walking around. Checking out the old neighbourhood and noticing that SO MANY things that I used to take for granted are now different.
3 months. .... what a difference.

All this means is that I have changed.
:)

Know what you want.

...only then you can have what you want :)

I started my list. Some people might call it a bucket list but I call it my "101 goals".

It's nothing easy.
It's BIG.
It scares me and I haven't achieved any of these things before. I might have been close with a lot of them or I've done similar stuff with no real ability to hang on to that dream (like flying or speaking a new language).

I urge all of you to do the same. Write it down and show it to your loved ones.

What is different

After 3 months in NOLA I feel like a millionaire :)

It's all in the Feeling. 

Choose life. Choose love.

Believe in yourself. 

Love.

Getting closer

The flight back is getting closer so I have to start eating the cupboards empty. ...
It's pancakes and berries (every morning) for this week.... :)

Life

Full of dance.

Ghosts

New Orleans is getting to me.
Or maybe it's the hot sun...

But I think there's somebody else in this apartment. I don't mean kiddo. He's sleeping upstairs alright but some days we come home and one of the ceiling fans might be on. They need to be turned on by hand so it can't be a ...hmmm... elf.

Just now I was standing around in the kitchen reading my work and I could swear someone else was there too.
Behind me.

I need to get my head straight.
There's actually a "brain thing" that can cause a feeling that someone is standing right behind you... freaky :D

This is an old house and it has a lot of wooden parts to it... so it's mostly just the house cracking and creaking and not some .....ghost or elf.
😌

Stop. Begin again.

I threw my fitness goals out the window.

I just felt like it.

But I didn't quit :)

I just freed myself for the rest of the trip. 

I tried GOMAD here and added 15kg to my squats. It felt great to go up and down and up and down with 115kg on my back.

I tried intermitten fasting and I leaned out nicely.

I tried running again and it hasn't even hurt. It felt great. I feel great. 

So why did I dump my goals and start living free?

Because I can. And because that's how I am.

A woman.