Thursday, May 29, 2014

Back day... or was it?


I had a back day, a good day, a day to remember... but I didn't get a REAL work out.
It just doesn't FEEL like a work out when you're pregnant... (ever)

I can't "kill myself" at the gym so I feel half baked and sloppy.
I can't go as high with my weights and I can't go as low with my squats and I can't push myself over the limits and I can't....... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH, I hate settling for less.

Thank goodness for Rob Bailey whispering in my ear:

thehustlestandard.com
 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BCDjtFvJhuI



Beast mode: ON

Quads and chest... just felt like mixing things around :)
I just can't stop feeling strong :)

why people don't talk to me at the gym :D
I'm in Beast mode :D


34 weeks... 68kg... I feel great!
Sometimes at night when I have to get up and go to the toilet I DON'T feel great... I feel like my abs are falling off. BUT, if I take it easy, sit by the bed just for a few seconds and then slowly get up... the bad feeling goes away :) Happy me! :)

Photos and poses

It was a Hot weekend :)

Saturday: cars, cars cars

Sunday: photo shoot at Sofia Virtanen, Hamina
www.sofiavirtanen.fi

When ever I need GOOD work --> I call Sofia :)

before we started I got my make up and hair from Minna Hirvonen www.glitz8glam.com
She did GREAT work... and it was close to +30C all the time :D ...well, at least +28C.

all done, WATER!

34 weeks pregnant :)

I'm melting :P

gosh, it was nice and hot that day <3

Some of the pics will be personal (as usual) but some of my old works are in Minna's blog (she did the make up and Sofia took the pics):

http://glitz8glam.blogspot.fi/2012/02/kuvia-eraalta-kuvausmeikkikeikalta.html 
http://glitz8glam.blogspot.fi/2012/07/kuvia-tyokeikalta-paljasta-pintaa-ja.html



Saturday, May 24, 2014

15 months out?

After fixing my diet I've lost 2kg of bloated water and shit.
I got a lot of my energy back and I'm still feeding the boy the right way :)

15 months... about. I have to buy my licence in January so by then I should be more than 50% sure. I also need to find a coach this fall. A year (1 year, 12 months!) from now I must know my competition schedule and have the hotels booked... I'll need to who'll help me backstage (if any) and start planning my recovery the next fall.

I always plan ahead. That's how I don't go mad with food when off season hits and I take a few days off...

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Feelin' fat, R ya?

I don't look too thin... But I'm 33weeks pregnant so fuxk dat...

Just cleaned up my diet again.
I've been popping too many white carbs lately. Popping down shit. Feeling bloated and tired.
Klick-klack, klick-klack... Boom! Two days and I feel SO much better :)

I weigh around 68kg. It might even go down a bit. Oh We'll. I'm at the gym maybe 2-3 times a week. No hurry with my lifting... I want to fix my diet first :)

My diet is about 80% of my lifting. Bad food equals shitty training. Good food = Great workout = Competition season <3

I gave myself a "go mad" day every Saturday. We'll see how mad I feel next Saturday :) Usually the first one is the hardest... I don't want kill my good feelings with white shit and sugar and bad carbs... But I AM going to eat as many fruits as I can! :-P


Sunday, May 18, 2014

Long day

It'll be a Very long day by the time we're home...
I cleaned up the car and prepped the rest of the food for a quick snack before we leave...

Now it's all about waiting for the guys and doing some more stretches :)

My inner thighs are So Tight!! Aargh...

How do I handle bloating

Warm weather, too much sitting around, tired, not enough water, too much salt, not eating clean, not exercising at all, travelling, not sleeping well, no chance to put my legs up (with out killing my knees or lower back)...

So what can I do?

1) don't blame the surroundings and make up excuses.
2) get MORE water and stick to drinking but keep an eye on the clock and the amount of water going in and coming out --> don't just look at the water --> drink it in small amounts and make sure your muscles stay "happy" and your stomach works every day.
3) stretch your body: legs, butt, (calves and ankles too!), back, sides (abs), neck, chest, wrists... everything! Don't just pickle yourself with warm air and sips of water (a sweaty, bloated, puffy faced, pissed off and constipated, tired female is NEVER a good thing. Stretching moves the water around in your body, it's not as good as cardio but it will help with the feeling: "something is very wrong and I can't tell if I'm hungry or not".
4) wear GOOD clothes. Don't wear clothes that make you feel even worse. Don't wear clothes that make it impossible to stretch or sit normally or walk freely etc.
5) wear GOOD shoes. Don't wear shoes that keep falling of if you walk on grass or backwards or do your stretches... Sneakers are good but DON'T let yourself look like a "fat tourist" 'cause you'll only hate yourself (when you see the pics on someone else's facebook) and forget to drink and move and enjoy the weather again ;)
6) smile. It actually helps to keep an open mind and stay focused on the positive parts. I don't hang around very long if someone is all about "Ooh, I'm so bloated... aah, I feel like a whale... Uuh, I'm just so tired, can you sit here with me and not drink water together and just listen to me whine about everything..."
7) keep an eye on your food intake. Others may feel better not eating 'cause it's so hot but YOU need to stay happy and keep your belly working! Don't diet like an idiot and then wonder why you're tired all the time and the trips to the toilet are only giving you a head ache...

stretch where you can, when you can, no excuses!

Legends

It's a race weekend!

We're at Jurva (Kurikka)... it's a 4,014 km long track out here somewhere half way up lady Finland's butt... :D

It's a a good track! And they have showers and everything for us who live out of our campers this weekend. The nearest town is about 10 km away.

Legends:

Honey drives #6

a link to Finnish pages: http://legendscars.fi/wordpress/
a link to English pages: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Legends_car_racing

Kiddo sure likes it :) I do too! :D

My top priority is to keep the food on the table and coffee ready... It's a warm weekend. Friday was chilly... frozen-friday almost. The nights have not been too warm but it help to wake up every 3 hours to go to the toilet (it's about 500m away?... it feels like 1km at 3am). The sun gets up around 4am and sets around 11pm so it's not even dark anymore ;)

It's a good weekend!

On the "not so good side":
- all this traveling and sitting and not eating clean is making me bloated
- my ankles, thighs and fingers feel like big, thick sausages again
- I can't drink water as much as I'd like to 'cause the toilet is so frelling FAR AWAY
- I can't get my feet up 'cause we don't have the right kind of chairs or sofas or anything here and I'm NOT going to sit on the grass and freeze my ass off... and the dogs keep doing their "business" right in front of our camper >:O

Thursday, May 15, 2014

5 nights of bad dreams

It took 5 nights for the nightmares to cool off...
The first 3 I was able to forget but the last two keep floating around in my mind.

#4 I was at a lecture (or some kind of a "learning party") about photography and modeling. I had a heavy winter coat on me and several warm shirts. It was summer but I felt cold. I sat next to a girl who loved her camera. She loved it so much she called it by name, "Cammy" it was...

She took some pics of me by the wall and kept asking me to pose for her and to have my arms up or to the sides and to make faces. I didn't. I just stood there like a doll... but when she showed me her pics from the camera I was shocked! In the pics I was wearing a black dress with red cherries, no sleeves, and doing all the poses that she wanted! The pics were mushy but I could tell it looked like me. I didn't have ANY tattoos in the pics but my arms looked like mine. I asked her to take some video so I could see if made any difference (by this time the dream got very COLD). She took some video and I couldn't believe it, I moved around on the video just like she wanted, I did all the poses and had that dark dress on... More people started to take pics and video me...

Why was this a nightmare? --> Everyone had control over me but ME, everyone got their pictures JUST like they wanted but I was cold and didn't care for the attention... I ran away from that place as the people there started to loose their faces. They literally melted off :( They had no eyes but their cameras could see everything.

I tripped over a very small boy before I got out. He kept laughing and showed me the door. He was dressed like a gentleman in the 1920's and he had a cane with him. He didn't look too dangerous but I lied to him about where I was going.

#5 Giant pirates, dead and decomposing pirates, were kept in giant glass tanks... The pirates were about 20m high and the room had more than 8 of them there. They all stood up right and the person giving the tour told us that they were SO EVIL that they could not die... The water moved and small bubbles ran across their sculls that still had most of their flesh on them. Some times a pirate would turn to look at you and sometimes you could see how the flesh would just peel off his back thigh... YÄK!

I hated being on this crazy tour from hell... The room had no gravity so we had to swim through the air. I didn't swim like I usually do (diving around like a happy little dolphin). I swam right against the floor like a little scared frog. I begged out loud that I could leave this room as I crept towards the big mahogany doors... I tried to swim as fast as I could but the air was thick and I took ALL my efforts just to keep moving slowly... "Please, please let me go", I cried and grabbed the door handle.

I made it out but as I fell down the stairs I saw that some of the other rooms (in that same museum) were closed but the key holes had red slime pushing through them and an eye in everyone of them stared at me.

"I need to get out of here" was my first thought.

At the bottom of the stairs I was told to go back up, back to the room with the undead pirates.
I woke myself up and I took me a minute or two to get out of bed. It was SO cold in the bedroom...

Oh God, I hope my dream space doesn't have a connection to our son.
I hope he sees dreams like his father. Good dreams but NO HAUNTING! Some of my dreams are more than 30 years, maybe 32 years old and I STILL remember how horrible they were.

It's a whole other life at night :)
The good dreams are GOOD ;) even better then the real thing <3
But the bad dreams can get very scary... and the only problem is that it takes a lot of effort to FORGET the feelings I have in those dreams... But I'm quite good at it :)





Sunday, May 11, 2014

The 4th night

Nightmares... Ghosts and dead people... Coming soon.

***

32 weeks pregnant and kiddo sure loves to dance <3

Mom threw the cat at the wall last night (in her sleep) and squirrels keep raiding her herbs and other balcony stuff...

(the cat is fine)
:)

Saturday, May 10, 2014

HH-10

Me and my old friend <3

Today I'm off to Helsinki for some extra training in marathon massage (Helsinki City Run)...

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Box squat



I'm about 68kg... the weight on my back was 70kg.

I won ;)

I could have gone higher/longer if I weren't pregnant.
But safety first :)
Even the (long & wooden) bench started to tilt under me ;D too much weight on one end...

oh... sorry about the hair. It's NOT going to be a habit!

Baby slept through the whole work out again...
Some lady at the gym asked me:
"does the baby get jumpy while you work out"
Me: "No. He sleeps when I work out ...or work."
The lady: "blaa-blaa-blaa-blaa :)"
Me: (continue with my warm ups) "mm-m" :)


Old school

I went "home" after a looong time <3


Samuli Koutajoki Big Boss at Kuntokeskus K&M
www.kuntokeskuskm.fi
I hit my upper back and shoulder with my honey... I was the MOST effective work out in weeks! I sure is up to the GYM as well as up to ME ---> Do the Work! (Do it at the Right place)

I did all sorts of fun sets with the different equipment they have there <3 I also hit my back with one armed rows --> 30kg was still ok :) Even though I weigh over 68kg now... Oh well, I guess weight isn't everything. Maybe I should try it with 34kg ;)

I'm going back at the end of this month. And I would love to check that place out next month too ('cause I'll be a huge balloon by then and it will look so funny... I'll take pics and videos!) <3

Samuli's gym moved few months ago across the street :)
Now everything is on the same floor :)

Gosh I wish we lived in Lahti <3 I could train there all the time!
:)


Red bikinis

I was at a fitness competition last night :)
It was a different competition... we didn't have ANY audience.
It was just us, the camera crews and the people who made things happen.

We weren't on time. It wasn't anyone's fault, Someone just kept changing the order all the time (on the internet): first the men were supposed to star the day, then it was the women, then it was the bodybuilders, now it was the fitness girls...

By the time my alarm rang I was still pumping up for my stage time - not knowing if I were actually going yet - and dancing around to soften my nerves... no point in being nervous since there wasn't even an audience out there... In fact, there weren't even any seats 'cause the sitting area was our prepping area :)

I was warming up just 30m from the front of the stage :)

I looked around and all the Pros didn't seem to mind the delay but all of us Amateurs felt like our money and months of prepping was being wasted :/

I woke up happy 'cause I looked Really good in my red bikini <3
But I don't think I'll ever go red in real life though?

(A lot of the Pros were wearing red as well.)

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

I'm heavy


OMG that belly makes me look silly?!?! This video is from last week end.

Dipping is getting harder and harder :(

Last night I got tired after 2 dips, I did the next 10 with one foot on the "leg rest". 2 sets like this and I was totally ready to do something else...

I had a GOOD arm day :) It's just that I can't do EVERYTHING... oh well... Kiddo was happy <3




Monday, May 5, 2014

Wow...

I just hit 68kg.
68... how much higher will it go? I "should" gain around 300-400/week... Or so I have been growing :) if I have Around 8 weeks left I'll gain... hmmm... Let me think (8*300 & 8*400 = ~2400-3200 grams)... 2-3kg! Holy shit locker, I'll go over 70kg for sure!!?

OMG

Where will I put it?... :-D
I'm getting too heavy for dipping... I did 2*2 and the rest had to be helped... Shit.

Do the work.

Do it.

Then IT works ;)

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Slowly

Some new clothes are starting to hang around the house... (baby laundry)

I still "forget" about the whole thing every now and then. Especially after work, in the car or while I sleep.

Kiddo loves to move around and take part in things he hears (or so I believe). He also sits in silence if I'm working, at the gym, cleaning the house or cooking or what ever... :)


Food

Finally a leg day but the Darn gym closed on me again :(
I forgot it closes at 20:00.
So it was a quicky leggie day...
Now for some big food and Hellboy 2 :)