Thursday, July 31, 2014

A big thing

I tested my foam rollers today :)
And I CAN use them again!
3,5 weeks after the birth of our son and I can help my leg muscles to relax better :D

I didn't test it on my upper back yet... Soon I'll star needing help in that area. It's impossible to massage it by myself, but the foam roller does it easily.

I'm happy with what I have right now. I'll test other ways to roll my muscles next week. I'm not doing any real exercises anyhow so it's more a mental thing (although my calves+thighs really needed some massage by now!).

Aahh... I'm hitting my gluteus maximus next! ;)

My belly is still FAR from ready. I'm about 86cm now (I was about 103cm just before I had kiddo)... still a lot to go! (circumference --> around the bellybutton)

Son of MacGyver

I found the kiddo trying to break out of his "cell block A"... he had fallen asleep after trying to figure out how the different balls needed to be moved for the door to open. His arm and leg were hanging out of his bed (he had moved sideways for 30cm all by himself).

MacGyver. One of my MUST SEE TV shows when I was a small child :)
And YES, yes I have seen the movies too ;)


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UKTNWI0eYJ4



he even has the MacGyver hair :D
(in the front his hair looks more like Bruce Willis...)

I LOVE drinking coffee in the morning... we have vanilla coffee <3

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

A need to reflect

"...I can not believe how amazing everything is going..."

I'm still recovering from having a baby but I'm doing it quite nicely :)

This Monday kiddo and I drove down to the city and I had my body composition checked out. Here's what we found:

Weight 62,4kg
Body fat 26,3%
Fat tot. 16,4kg
"to stay alive" I need 1371,9kcal/day

Muscle mass:
left leg 6,9kg
right leg 6,9kg
left arm 2,2kg
right arm 2,2kg
"mid bits" 25,6kg

About 2 years ago I had less muscle tissue (about 2kg less) and my fat% was different (19,8% ~11kg, my weight was 55,2kg) but I do wonder if I lost any muscle during the pregnancy...? I'll never know.

This morning I was just under 62kg... I'm in no hurry to lose the weight. When I hit 60kg I'm expecting to stay in that weight for a long time since I want to turn fat into muscle :) mostly by eating Right but also by doing (at least) 3 (GYM) workouts per week + long walks with the baby. If I'm lucky I'll have a chance to go to a gym on the weekends but I'll do fine at home too! :)

I'm getting my body composition tested AGAIN next month.
We'll see how well I've actually been eating ;)



Sunday, July 27, 2014

All that stuff out there



I want to talk about things...
I need time to write. A lot of time. Not just the little moments I have during the day... (this weekend I was home alone with our son)

I want to talk about my dreams, about the stuff I want to do in my life, about the people I want to meet, places I want to see... I want to put it all out there so I won't forget. I won't have the luxury to say "oh, I forgot", "I didn't have the time" or "I'll do it later, some day"...

I need time to organize my thoughts... No, no... I need just enough time to regurgitate my thoughts into this blog :)

walking in +30C... kiddo loves it to sleep ;)



Thursday, July 24, 2014

going on week 3...

hmm, baby got his first check up.
I was more nervous than he was. I don't like it when half strangers make our son cry...

I get primitive...

He didn't really cry too much. Just took a dump in his nappies and sprayed urine everywhere when I took his diaper off for the check up. Kiddo loves to play like he's a fire hose ;D

After a 40min walk on Tuesday... 
I was attacked by wasps (or what ever) in the forest so we had to run a bit and this meant that I bled a bit in my pants when we got home... I didn't rip anything --> some fresh blood and "crystal slime" (that was going to pop out anyhow) just let go and moved out :)
Yäk.
belly: 2 weeks pp (me: about 63kg, 162cm. This is still about 10kg MORE than I weighed last summer!)
this is taking foreverrrrr...

Most of my extra fat is in my thighs, butt and lower back... sure I have some on my belly, arms and all over the place... Gosh. I wonder if only clean eating will help?
It just feels SO stupid to just go out for walks... like what the fxck?! That's it?! Yes, THAT is it.

Life sure is weird and the days are not covered with smog or mist or any of that shit... I'm awake when I'm awake and I sleep the rest of the time :) 

It's that easy.

Balance and sleep





I'm starting to be a SERIOUS fan of Rob... <3

He's got his own youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=UU5VApMW9VIdoWiLqgaHJCDg




Tuesday, July 22, 2014

My recovery from a c-section

2 weeks into this new life as parent/safety officer/private milk bar etc. to a new boy.

I had to stick this stuff into my belly for 2 weeks just to be safe from blood problems (embolisms).
Still just short & long walks and wife/female/mother stuff around the house.
I get a lot of sleep and I can rest if I need to. Belly is still gathering itself... it feels like it's taking forever but I know it takes time. I WANT my NORMAL belly back. I'll get it soon :)
Plenty of oil, massage and and good food :)
I'm very happy that I didn't get any stretch marks anywhere. Must be all the oiling and fresh veggies in my diet?

I take care of my skin, hair, face and body just like I used to. Baby is never in the way and since he loves milk and resting and looking around --> he's enjoying his life quite well <3

The surface wound healed very quickly... but I can still feel the stitches under my skin, freaky! I wonder how long it takes for them to melt away? I've read somewhere that when they start melting it causes some pain in the area. Oh well, at least I'll know what's going on ;)

 My weight is still dropping, slowly. I'm around 63kg right now.
No rush. I want to keep my muscles ;)

Saturday, July 19, 2014

My little babies

I miss my (home) workouts...

They weigh nothing and I'm not allowed to play with 'em :(

Soon, soon my darlings... 


Thursday, July 17, 2014

So, How bad is it...?

2 days ago I had my "metallic clips" removed. I had them for a week. Skin ( belly) is tightening up nicely but I'm still quite bloated and I feel "stupid" when we go out 'cause I'm not happy with my "baby belly". Week after week it will get smaller and eventually it will look something like the belly I had last night in my dream :)

About my dreams... I've been hanging out at this spooky town somewhere around mid Europe. Old town, big stone buildings and narrow alleys. It was winter the other night. I was out driving with honey. Slippery as hell it was. I lost control over the car (a really old VW Beetle, yellow and rusty), we were all over the road, I screamed, lifted my arms to the roof and told honey I don't want to drive any more. He took over and with just two small moves we were safe again... the car was under control, no-one got hurt and everything was alright again :)

Kiddo:
Sleeps, eats, uses diapers and makes cute sounds <3
He also knows how to cry :)
He makes faces, rolls around on the bed and looks around a lot.
He seems very interested in the world around him.
And boobs.
He loves boobs.

I have time to eat well, do all the wifey stuff around the house... I have time to take good care of our boy and we all have plenty of time to live as a family and learn new things every day.
Life is good :)
I think my preparations were a good thing. Mental prep was the key... And the food prep... And ALL those work outs ;)

:D

We're learning and living at the same time. The hours in a day are just fine. A bit mixed up, but everything gets done.

Plan for success! ;)


Lunch

Same old, same old...
Nothing new in my kitchen.

I should eat more often so that my weight won't go down too fast. I'm hoping to hit ~60kg by 1.9.2014.
Why?
Because I want to keep my muscles ;) once the bloated belly goes away I can start keeping an eye on myself... I can start to build my form up ;) more muscle, more shape :)

I'm not very good with salads...

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Weight?

This morning (Tuesday, 1 week postpartum), while carrying the baby around without a breakfast in my (still balloon like) belly: 68kg <-- Me+Baby

last Friday when WE got home, I had only "lost" 2kg :D
I was VERY bloated from all the water and meds. My ankles and feet did NOT look shredded  and my veins and tendons were not visible like normally
 
I just weighed myself  (JUST me) and I'm around 64,8kg (but I haven't had my lunch yet)

1st week with baby

We checked in to the hospital last week... Tuesday morning.

Monday night was kind of "slow and quiet " to be honest. I thought we might do a lot of things together but eventually we ended up just chilling at home and staying close together :)

on our way to the hospital at 6am (we're passing another car)

The hospital is in the south of Finland, a city called Kotka (Eagle). By the sea.

...one of the views from the hospital. They kept us (mothers and babys) in the top floor (8th floor). The whole week was sunny and hot. It was hot inside too but luckily  I got my own room with the boy. I also had my own shower and toilet.
On Monday I stopped eating solids at 16:00. From there on I could eat liquid "stuff" until I went to bed around 22:00 (I took my premeds then). I wasn't allowed to drink water after 04:00. 

Our midwife started prepping me around 07:15. Some more meds (maybe, I don't remember what that sip of water actually was), a needle in my arm so I kept "drinking" while my mouth was dry (that bag of water looked SO GOOD after a night of no water), a tube up my bladder and some more waiting (NOT a lot)... Honey stayed with me most of the time. I think just before I got wheeled in to the operating room he was not by my side but getting cleaned up and ready. 

More tubes up my arms and "a quick wash" around my lower back. A sting between my L2 and L3 vertebra --> lost feeling in my legs (WEIRD!) and abdomen.

They tilted the table to the left (my blood flow likes it better). 

The spooky questions: "can you feel this?"
Me: "it feels like someone is touching me gently with a pair of tweezers..."

A lot of pulling and pushing and stretching sensations... I felt a bit sick for a small while but kept holding honeys hand and talking if I was asked... I had a stinging sensation in my right smaller pec muscle.

By 08:25 the boy was out <3 Well actually he started screaming by the time his HEAD was out :D Honey said it looked very WILD ;) especially when they pull him out by his head alone. 

Now here's the weird part:

He looked just like I thought he would!!! <3 I got to hold him for some time (very long actually) and honey went to clean him up with the midwife.

I got stitched back together (actually REALLY quickly) and sent back to the prepping room. I might have seen honey and the boy before that... I can't remember. Time moved very slowly for me.

Down stairs I got some more water, honey helped and watched over the boy while the midwife did her measurements. Kiddo got another quick wash, a diaper and a hat. 

I think I got to hold him again and keep him close to my skin. Me and the boy got wristbands (those plastic things with my name on it) so we were linked and marked to say together...

after all that it was all about staying close together <3
I got basic meds 3 times a day and I could ask for "a small pain killer" when ever I wanted. I think I asked for it 4-8 times/24h. I can't remember.

Tuesday I kept on my back. I got my feeling back after a few hours and it felt bad 'cause I WANTED to move but I wasn't allowed to do so. Not until the next morning. Honey fed me and gave me water to drink. I didn't feel sick so I was allowed to start drinking and eating as much as I want. (Hospital food does NOT have a lot of calories so I asked honey to bring me extra yogurts and coffee.

Wednesday morning the nurses told me how to sit up right,  took the tube out of my bladder and ordered me to stand up (they don't help, they just watch and make sure I do it right). After that it was SHOWER TIME :) I stood and washed myself. One of the nurses stood by to help if I needed it and helped me with my wound. 

It was hard but every day things got easier. I kept moving around and lying around all day. I was still too "weak" to lift the boy around in bed (=scared I'll crush/drop him), but I got help all the time. I thanked everyone who helped and taught me :) It was a quiet week but I knew other mothers needed even more help than me! 

I also knew that if I eat and drink enough --> I could cut down on my meds every day! I was really hoping to go home on Friday!

Friday came. Baby got his first check up (by a doctor). I cried my eyes out (my boy cried and I couldn't help him... I felt so weak. I wanted to hold him and keep him safe). All week I had kept my cool and acted super calm. But when I heard we could go home... that's when it hit me <3 

WE'RE GOING HOME!

I love our son so much <3
I want to keep him safe <3

***

The first week was just like I thought it might be. Well I wasn't expecting to cry 24 hours straight JUST because I was HAPPY :)  

On Saturday we went out to a mall (for food, baby stuff and towels). Oh boy was it a long day :) I think I walked around too much...





Friday, July 11, 2014

Hospital food

How it went. How I'm feeling. How's the humanoid... And other fun stuff Coming Up!!! :)

Monday, July 7, 2014

What shoes did I put on?

Soon this question will be stupid... today it was valid.
I forgot.

;)


Tired... I still have a shoulder work out until  I can take a hot shower and relax...
I'll just pump up my delts and make sure that I keep my back straight. I also have to take some last pics of the belly (and the rest of me) and live on liquids for the rest of the night... Around midnight I'll stop drinking water. After that it's all fingers crossed that I don't have to wait very long for my turn tomorrow morning at the hospital... 



The last day with belly...

it's like a BAG?!! Big belly... most of my extra weight is right There... 13kg of it.
I wonder if I'll loose the first 10kg fast or slow? How slow is slow any how... and how fast would fast be? (Baby 3,5kg)
102cm around the belly (I measured it yesterday, bellybutton height)
This morning I was still 69,9kg (after breakfast).

The last day and the last night. Tomorrow morning we are going to the hospital (I'm fine and so is our son) and the whole circus gets started with a few tubes and needles :)

Everything will be fine.
I'll be home by Friday or Saturday. I know kiddo will come home too.

So what happens then?... well, I'll start a new routine and I'll try to incorporate short walks, good food, plenty of water and What ever to our new life as a bigger family. Kiddo will be tired and hungry. I know JUST how he feels (every day) :) 

He'll need plenty of hugs and help. He'll need love and warmth <3 We'll be there for him. Poor little guy. Breathing gas instead of floating around in his own juices ;) 

He's so small but so strong.
He's our son <3

the sun is back

It's hot again.
By hot I mean it's about 15-25C during the day :)

I have to keep away from the sun (it's too hot for me now) and still find stuff to do outside while I'm not sleeping or cleaning the house... There are plenty of TV shows I have "on tape". With the belly it's easy to watch them. What isn't easy is getting up again :) ...and yes, I have to get up all the time: toilet, more water, toilet again, a plate of veggies, more water, toilet again...


Last week, week 40

Last week I had several short work outs, some walks and plenty of treats (ice-cream, pizza, a hand full of candy, lots of fruits, some dark bread, too much cheese and a gallon of milk...)...

I did my work outs at home... legs, shoulders and arms are easy. Back add chest still need some more ideas and my core needs to come back ;)

On Saturday honey surprised me and we went to real gym :) I made it a leg day. It was a good day :)

I get tired in the sun. I could sleep for the rest of the day and night I spend a morning in the sun... even a 1-1,5h walk can get me looking like the kitchen rag :D

My home work outs:

I keep the weights close. I do circuit training. I keep a water bottle close and opened.
I do at least 2-3 sets with 10-50 reps. I do super sets, giant sets and I use a mirror to see what happens around my core area (I need to see my lower back!)... If I start to feel tired (too tired) I shorten my sets, start adding holds to sets (a rep will have a 2-6 sec. hold in it) and I FIND the reason for the tired feeling (is it in my muscles, is it in my head, is it motivation, heat, bad underwear?...).

My walks:
30 min - 1,5 hours, just walking, enjoying the weather (what ever it may be), up a hill down another... soft ground, no tarmac. Usually alone, sometimes I use my "Nordic walking sticks". About 20 min in to the brisk walk I always find myself in a bush with a full bladder (well, not full for long).

Kiddo loves my walks, he often kicks around and tries to push his way out to join me :)
I've notices that if I feel a strong weight around my lower abs I can just squeeze my abs a bit and it helps. I've stopped being worried about my abs even though I can't plank to save my life AND I'm such a balloon now that I look silly just sitting down... I look just like an orangutan.

some stretching after my morning walk...




Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Running out of time

...or am I?

I've had plenty of time, plenty of opportunities to get ready, eat right, workout and prep for the kiddo :)

I feel ready. I look ready :D and I AM ready.
So what are we waiting for?...

Well: kiddo. He's still just practicing his breathing, living like a fish and enjoying the warm, dark cave with smooth, pink walls <3


the Finnish summer is shit this year...

home gym = it's all I have (+ long walks)