I (always) need to be in control

I don't give a fxck.

I always need to be in control of my own fxcking life.

I don't care what others think. It's my life and I'm the one who's living it :)

But I do listen to others and I worry.... I worry they'll ware me down, pull me under and make me dull.

I want to yell out "I'm doing it!" I want to be the one who looks through my eyes and sees my deeds and feels my needs.
I want to go out and do it.

I'm on my way now and no one's going to stop me. They may trip me or push me around but like I keep telling kiddo "sometimes we fall down, but we always get up" :)