Home spa

I've been testing stuff I've found on the interweb.
Like "DIY at home sugar waxing" and "baking soda as a skin cleaner"...

The instructions are on youtube. You'll find many.

My results with the sugar wax were:
Doesn't work. Not a chance.

The coconut oil + baking soda (+ some lemon juice) tests have worked well. It leaves my skin feeling fresh, soft and clean for the rest of the day :)
I think I even look better and I feel better, too ;)

It's my Birthday and I'm Celebrating it with Rob Bailey!

So I'm 40-ish...
Well, now I float somewhere over there in the mid bits of my potential lifeline...
It has been said and often proven that the MOST effective and glorious time in a person's life is between 40 and 60 (give or take a decade).

So I'm closing in on the golden pot!!! :D
I have 38 loops behind me and all I have to do is circle the sun ONE MORE TIME and I can start on my 40th loop-de-loop!!! JEEEEEEEE!!! :D

I got breakfast in bed this morning.
I had just finished a dream with Rob Bailey where he showed me some stuff NO-ONE knows yet!
I love this when I get to see his world before he publishes it... I've had dreams like this before and it is really FREAKY when the stuff actually happens in real life! Kind of scary, too.

I can tell you some of the stuff but I'll keep to myself the really cool stuff that I want to see happen later.

In my dream, I sent Rob a WhatsApp message asking him how he was feeling and what he had been doing today. I knew he's a busy man so I wasn't expecting him to answer but he actually called me back on video and we talked for a while. He was at Flag nor Fail and he showed me the new line of prints he had been working on for a while now. It was "just" prints but I knew the message on the shirts was far greater than just the words printed on them. He was getting ready to edit a video explaining the messages and thoughts that created the prints.

I remember how EXCITED he was :)
He was tired and he had been up for several nights working on his passion. He was so happy and "drunk on life" that I got all excited  :)
(I felt like a hundred million bucks after I woke up this morning.)

The prints were awesome. The message was clear and short. But it took Rob an hour to explain it on his youtube channel --> He kept wondering off to other subjects and his cameraman didn't really stop him. But the longer video actually helped. People could REALLY SEE and HEAR how much work a man can put into his dreams when he REALLY wants to make a point in life!

There's a big change coming and I feel privileged to be in the front line when it comes :)
Before the call ended I saw what Rob's public life looked like in the future. He has an exciting future floating closer and closer and there's no doubt about it. This "big secret" I'll keep to myself. Just like I'll keep to myself the prints he has coming out. They might not be the NEXT prints but I'll keep my eyes open and simply wait. They are coming.

My dreams are my dreams. My energy waves INSIDE my brain. But who knows, RB might be seeing the same dreams ;)

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My car is better than Rob Bailey's RV -so what

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My obsession with people and things are nothing small...

The electric car that BMW is working on and producing has gotten my eye... (it can be bought -used- here in Finland for about 150 000€)

I love the i8.

I want it in white and with a female computer that will greet me every time I enter the car :)
:D

Dream big, get obsessed and create your own reality!

I was just talking to Rob Bailey in a dream about a month ago and he said something that doesn't really open up here but in my mind, he opened a new door.

We were standing around in a street. I think it was outside his Warhouse Gym.

I asked him how cold the weather was. He said it was probably +2 or +4 degrees Celsius.

I looked at my white i8 that I had parked next to Rob's old and rundown RV (hah!) and wondered:

"Do you think my car will start?"

Rob: "Of course."

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It was the tone of his voice that really made the DIFFERENCE.

He KNEW my car would start. He wasn't guessing or being polite.

It's exactly that kind of thinking that I get from Rob. He mentors me into becoming my OWN success story. I don't have to care about what others think or about "their crap, misfortunes or success". None of that matters in MY life. 

My life is what I make of it. I should not GUESS how to live it. I will just do my BEST and enjoy the rest ;)

That's why I love him <3

I am obsessed with Rob Bailey (Flag nor Fail)

Some people just walk into my life and I let them stay. I just can't get away from them.
They are too perfect, too similar, and too addictive.

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I used to think of Rob as a "loud and mysterious man who likes to make a lot of noise and take up a lot of room". I didn't like him at first. I remember telling myself "I hope he fades off into the darkness behind his wife Dana..."

I'm glad he didn't. As a matter of fact, he's now one of the most important people in my life. He  has been a "mentor" to me for a while now.
I tried dropping him last year and this winter but for some reason, he always comes back. Often in dreams and sometimes by accident when I realise I really need to hear from him (I follow his youtube channel: killrobbailey).

I tried dropping him because One has to be willing to make BIG changes in her life to become a better person. So this winter I dropped EVERYTHING for a second. Not at once but during a timeline of several weeks. It was a rehearsal and IT WORKS. It's a mental thing and that is all that the brain needs. It will not know the difference between a real emotion and a self-made one. It will act upon anything I tell it to do and I told it to do some really crazy shit.
Let's just say that "I finally fxcking CLEANED UP!"
:D

So why did I take the risk of DROPPING something I already know I'm obsessed with?
--> like I said earlier: (the one that matters) always comes back.
A lot of other things came back too, right the next second. There was no doubt in my mind about it.

Some of my dreams with Rob are mostly long talks and drinking coffee or just sitting outside on a balcony watching other people go about their lives. We smile a lot.

In one dream about 2 months ago, I was standing around on a junk planet and watching a giant trash mill eat up big trucks and old trains. It was like a whirlwind of death and destruction for old crap. The size of the rotating machine was about the size of a football super dome. We had to stand half a mile away on a hill. The day was warm but the winds were acting up. Sand flew and the sounds of screeching and small explotions reached us lightly as whispers.
Rob was there with Dana and I had two friends with me.
Dana wanted to get home so Rob said bye and turned. One of my friends turned and whispered to Rob:
"You should go check out those guys at the gym in Australia..."
Rob didn't hear him so he asked:
"Aa... say what?"
My friend switched to some kind of tired Finnish and mumbled:
"Käyhä poeka kattoo ne äijät aussien salill..."
Rob smiled and thanked him even though he clearly didn't understand what had been said.
For some reason, my friends didn't like having Rob there...

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How dumping my fitness goals set me free:

It WAS one of the hardest things to do. WAS...

Letting go is never easy.

But the Minute I let go, and I Meant it, I felt a breeze of fresh air in my lungs! The same day I took a late shower and stood in front of the mirror like I always did. 

(I had to wait for the water to turn warm.) 

That night and every day since I saw myself with completely different eyes :)

I saw the beauty in me and the perfection that has always been ME.

I AM PERFECT.
I was so stunned about this new feeling of love that I felt that I just had to try it: I said to myself "I love me."

I felt Great!

 It didn't kill me. I didn't have to lie. 

I was completely FINE with myself AND my body.

I was perfect in every way <3

I was the same perfect little baby that I had been when I was born. Just a little bit bigger.

50% of what we see are (just) the pictures that our MIND gives us through the gateways of our senses. We see (feel, hear etc.) the world, yes, and it's always a bit different than the world our friends or family see.

The other 50% of our world is what our brain sees... it fills in the blanks and "the usual stuff". That's why we don't see the new dress on our wife or the different colour in her hair. That's why we forget to buy milk or lock the car... our brain fills in here and there and it also fills in for emotions. It sees the usual stuff that used to make us feel bad and it makes us STILL feel bad when we see the stuff again. Like a body that lost 30kg of fat or a dog that bit us 30 years ago.

The brain remembers and it should NOT be let to run the show.

Let GO of the old stuff and look at every moment like it truly was your FIRST time. It will not take any more time but you will feel EXITED and HAPPY! :)

Get excited about being alive and experience your life and loves like a newborn. With every movement of your arms and legs :D 

Enjoy life

and you will be SO much happier.

Start today. 

It might "hurt" to smile at first but you'll get the hang of it ;)

I promise <3 

How now brown cow

I've been walking around. Checking out the old neighbourhood and noticing that SO MANY things that I used to take for granted are now different.
3 months. .... what a difference.

All this means is that I have changed.
:)

Know what you want.

...only then you can have what you want :)

I started my list. Some people might call it a bucket list but I call it my "101 goals".

It's nothing easy.
It's BIG.
It scares me and I haven't achieved any of these things before. I might have been close with a lot of them or I've done similar stuff with no real ability to hang on to that dream (like flying or speaking a new language).

I urge all of you to do the same. Write it down and show it to your loved ones.

What is different

After 3 months in NOLA I feel like a millionaire :)

It's all in the Feeling. 

Choose life. Choose love.

Believe in yourself. 

Love.

Getting closer

The flight back is getting closer so I have to start eating the cupboards empty. ...
It's pancakes and berries (every morning) for this week.... :)

Life

Full of dance.

Ghosts

New Orleans is getting to me.
Or maybe it's the hot sun...

But I think there's somebody else in this apartment. I don't mean kiddo. He's sleeping upstairs alright but some days we come home and one of the ceiling fans might be on. They need to be turned on by hand so it can't be a ...hmmm... elf.

Just now I was standing around in the kitchen reading my work and I could swear someone else was there too.
Behind me.

I need to get my head straight.
There's actually a "brain thing" that can cause a feeling that someone is standing right behind you... freaky :D

This is an old house and it has a lot of wooden parts to it... so it's mostly just the house cracking and creaking and not some .....ghost or elf.
😌

Stop. Begin again.

I threw my fitness goals out the window.

I just felt like it.

But I didn't quit :)

I just freed myself for the rest of the trip. 

I tried GOMAD here and added 15kg to my squats. It felt great to go up and down and up and down with 115kg on my back.

I tried intermitten fasting and I leaned out nicely.

I tried running again and it hasn't even hurt. It felt great. I feel great. 

So why did I dump my goals and start living free?

Because I can. And because that's how I am.

A woman.

Feeling kind of weird

'cause I spent last night with Sheldon...

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A book

This is The book for me right now.
I'm not looking for a quick fix to getting rich or successful, no, I'm looking for My Greater Self :)

And it's all in me :D

I just have to say it out loud:

"I want to...."

❤

(I'm not telling You what I want.
But you should figure out Your life.
Trust me... it will be worth it.)

My math failed

It's not easy being all smart at the gym when you're tired and stuff...

So I failed at math again.
I was aiming to do 3*100kg squats to finish off my legs but I think I put about 115kg on my back... I did the set and loved the hell out of it.
I guess it's more than healthy to throw the metric system out the window every now and then  ;)

We saw some crazy animals this week.

It's been a hot week :)

Books

I found some books this week. I'm hoping they'll shake the bad dreams away.

Mardi Gras

Yep... it's Mardi Gras Tuesday tomorrow.
We could do all sorts of cool and crazy stuff... go running/jogging with a mass of people in a park at 7am,
http://www.auduboninstitute.org/audubon-park/favorites/jogging-path
see the first parade at 8am (they go on all day in different areas)
http://www.mardigrasneworleans.com/schedule.html,
have a long picnic/brunch at 10am...

But njääh... I think we'll just get some milk in the morning, have a long lunch, give kiddo a bath, do some weird "at home baby yoga" (it's mostly just playing with small cars while stretching) and I'll do some writing while kiddo sleeps his nap. The parenting center http://www.chnola.org/parentingcenter
is closed this Tuesday so we could take the bike and ride/jog to the big park later in the afternoon :)
We go to the parenting center to let kiddo play with toys (they have a big play room and a big yard) and other kids. It's a members only thing so it's clean, safe and big :)

But when Wednesday finally comes... uuuuhhh ;)
The gym opens and I'll hit the weights again around 9am.
It's new, it's fun and I'm loving it! Morning work outs! It's not super early, it's just 9am but to me it is EARLY!
Usually I train at 8pm so it's definitely different :)

This week is especially hard 'cause I'll have to train Wed-Thu-Fri. Not Mon-Wed-Fri. Hmmm.... squatting every day, every damn day.
I know I can do it. I know it will be horrible at some point, but I can do it.
I just need to remember that the rest of the week needs food, lots and lots of real, clean food :)
And maybe a day in the NOLA insectarium (and the zoo and the aquarium, it's cheaper that way)

http://www.auduboninstitute.org/insectarium

http://www.auduboninstitute.org/aquarium

http://www.auduboninstitute.org/zoo

To all ya dumb asses

In case you know me and think my life is any of your business...

please read the following:

Stop fucking harassing my honey for stuff on MY facebook profile.

Don't fucking ask stupid fucking questions. He is NOT the one making the markings on my pages.

I make changes here and there all the fucking time.
It's nothing personal, people!!!

Stop trying to see stuff that isn't there.

Thank you

Thomas

William "Bill" Thomas Compton...

Can't shake him.

Especially when we're here in Louisiana now.

He's everywhere... I hear him inside my mind... telling me to keep going, never stop, trust in myself and in what I believe is the truth.

Another day with the Baileys

Last night was a weird combo of dreams and coughing (kiddo handled the latter).

As a matter of fact I found out that the people in my dreams are starting to talk to each other. Some of them knew me already 'cause they had been talking to their neighbors. I met this old sea captain who lived in the forest near a swamp that I have to cross now and then. He knew of me already 'cause I had been helping out at his neighbor's house some weeks earlier. That neighbor showed up and the dream got a bit spooky. I was bicycling around with kiddo and when the old guy from the other house showed up the ground froze and it seemed like there was something more to the swamp than just a "place I have to cross sometimes"... the men were really nice to us but the weather got wild. Winter attacked the little valley in seconds and I ran into a car with kiddo. We drove like crazy to the main highways and calmed down.
Winter was everywhere... all the roads were icy and the sky was white. We saw an airport and jumbo jets were taking off one after the other. It wasn't a normal airport. They were using the new sling shot method to help the planes take off with less effort. It was much more like a seesaw. The whole runway would tilt up when the plane was taking off. (It was only used for the big planes.) It made the plane kind of jump into the air. It didn't look safe...

Some of the highways were weird too. Everything was white and beautiful but they were more like the tracks we build with our kids where you have loops and take-off ramps. I passed an old pick up truck that nearly fell off his intersection because it had problems making the jump.

Later on I went shopping for organic eggs. For some reason the hens weren't fed enough nutrients and their eggs kept cracking in my hands before I got to the check out. I saw Rob there. He was buying an old couch. An ugly fxcking couch. I followed him to his warehouse where he said he'll strip the surface and fillings and just use the lumber.
"Lumber... in a couch." I thought.
Dana, Ragz and half their farm was there running around.
There was plenty of wood inside that old couch. I was amazed. The whole dream seemed to vortex around that old couch and what was found inside it.    
Most of the time I just listened to how the people around me spoke and how they kept the discussion flowing and interesting... it's some kind of brain candy for me to listen to people talk and interact. ;)

There was also an incident with Robs pants but I won't go into detail. :D

Gosh. I woke up happy and laughing :D