Shake it off...

Tomorrow is the last day to buy the IFBB licence for 2015....

Shake it off. ....  brrr.
So close.

It would be so easy.

No.

I must not. .....
:)

Shoulders

DTP week...

If you're wondering where I get my workouts then just click yourself to "heaven":

http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/kris-gethins-12-week-muscle-building-trainer.html

bodybuilding.com

I'm in week 7...

http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/kris-gethin-muscle-building-trainer-day-46.html

It's not as easy as you might think.

I don't get to do EVERYTHING just like Kris says.

My gym ain't that good.

I do what I can with what I have and I do it as well as I can.

Point being: I DO IT.

I've used bodybuilding.com before.

My first photo shoot was helped by Jamie Eason:

http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/jamie-easons-livefit-introduction.html

bodybuilding.com

He gave me yellow flowers

I know him from somewhere. I know I do.
We don't do things together but I'll know his handsome face anywhere...

He had beautiful yellow flowers with him.
"These are for you, my love."
I couldn't breath.
How could he know!?
Only honey knows that I love yellow flowers. Who IS this guy?
The flowers were beautiful. I felt a warm calmness enter my body as I squeezed the flowers to my chest.
Beautiful.

We walked to the hospital and went to the autopsy room. Our seats were right at the front.
I held on to his arm through the whole endeavour.
Later on he said that my claw marks were still on his bicep.

Keep hitting 'til it's dead

My job was to watch videogames and other movies/demos and to choose if they work for children. I basically just sat on a sofa in an old carpet factory and watched TV. The tv was placed on a dusty pool table that had lost it's legs. I was on the fifth floor and the windows over looked an endless ocean of sand.

Phhhh...what windows. Most of them were smashed or missing.
The lifts were old animal cages from the near by zoo. My sofa was light green in color and it had beige patches where the rats had eaten through. ..
Most of the games were your basic adventure games: jump shoot attack jump kill jump fly jump hang glide pick up use jump look good while jumping...
I wasn't allowed to play. I just watched. The games/movies changed and I just sat there. In the middle of an empty sand planet.
Maybe I would get lucky and the building would set on fire?

I woke up.
Gotta eat something. It was 0100.

We were stuck in a wooden mansion. The sauna was on and it felt like every room had 3 exits but none of them ever led anywhere.
Somebody said that there was a tiger loose in the building.
I kept close to the other people even though I did not trust any of them.
Who the hell are they anyway??
... Once more I tried to find my way out but I kept finding myself in the sauna section. Aaargh. I hate this!

Where hell is that tiger? I closed every door behind me and made sure to check my weapons before I open the next one...  one of the girls had passed out. She lay on the floor and she wasn't breathing.
"Oh no!" I heard someone scream.
Hmmm... She wasn't bleeding.
A blond girl ran to me and we both shook the brunette on the floor. "Please don't be dead?!" (Blondie must have known her? Maybe they were friends?)
Darkie moved a bit and we both hugged her there on the floor.
Ohh.. She's alive :)

Blondie held my arm sofly as the brunette started kissing me.
Boy, they sure are friendly in these horror dreams?
I felt her tongue in my cheek.
"Get off, bitxh!"
She grabbed me and tried to bite my arm. Her arms and legs moved in all directions. Her body did not function like a human. She had turned into a zombie-moron!?

OMG. She had a brain defect! She had been without oxygen for too long!

"Keep hitting her! Hit her with your knives!!" The other girl screamed and kicked the zombie in the stomach. 

I didn't fully understand why but I guessed it was ok to kill her dead 'cause she was now less useful for the rest of the group? :/

Kill her dead.
But aren't zombies already dead?

Can I please just sleep...

On some nights I and the small one sleep for 14h.
On some nights we wake up to eat and then just carry on...
Last night was one of those nights:
18-21 dreams and then I eat.
21-01 dreams and then baby ate.
01-06 dreams and we both ate.
06-08 I "sleep" and baby plays in his bed with his toys and sings to them...
What a night :)

I am tired physically but happy mentally.
Baby is just being baby.

We're not even sick. We just love to sleep :)

Usually "we" sleep from 20:00 to 10:00, give or take an hour...

I think that tonight we'll be going to bed early again :)

Gosh do I love my dreams... my other world <3
(Not every week... Sometimes I have shit for dreams)

DTP

Excuse me as I die...
Legs.
I used to own a pair.

The gym life

That other life...
No glory, no best buddy system...
Most of the time you're on your own.

No fancy clothes, no tan, no cute nails, no posing, just the Feeling :)
Your choices, your time, your life.
Your best body system ;) and a plan to never settle.

Rest day #3

Nope.
No rest.
Honey couldn't come home tonight but I did my workout at home after baba found a sack full of dream dust...
I pumped my shoulders, traps, triceps and abs. I had a gray gymstick, weights (4,5kg, 7,5kg and 2x10kg) and I also used a chair for support in some of the sets...

It was not a "good" workout, I did not get a strong pump but I did my best to make every rep of every set as hard as I could...

I did the work even when I knew I could not grab big weights, even when I knew I could not break personal records... I did it.

And then I had an omelette :)

How bad do I want it?

So bad...

Here's that back video from last weekend.

All my blood is in my baaack...

I think did 4-5 sets of 8-12 with 65kg... but since I warmed up with too many sets (5x50kg) I lost most of my strength :/

...idiot.

The importance of independence

Doing everything "on my own" by following Kris Gethin's program has been an great journey so far. I'm feeling the same kind of pride in my life choices that I felt when I worked with a real coach. The last sets in my workouts are not empty, they have just as much meaning in them as do sets where I have a PT or a friend to help me out.

The difference is that I don't speak with my coach or get any feedback about my accomplishments. On the downside I am not getting help if stuff is slowly going wrong. I have to keep an eye on myself and fix things as they happen. I do not yet have the ability to prevent all mistakes or estimate when I might need a "big feed day".
My main goals right now are to check my calories and to push them as high as I possibly can. I have 2 rest days now so it's more than just important to eat clean and keep flexible  :)

...so what am I doing Right now? ...hanging around with baba. Thinking about the uncooked chicken in the fridge and wondering if my head will crack if I have 2 more cups of coffee.
What I should be doing (and will do now that baba fell asleep): cook the chicken, drink a litre of water, clean the kitchen and fold the laundry. Then eat my lunch, clean the toilets and prep the living room for some crawling time with baby.

I will get a PT when I start my last leg of this (current) project.
But who ever he or she might be, I want him/her to see what can be done without "real help" ;)

Then when we start working together to make me even better, we don't have to be gentle in any way ;)

I'm going home

Right after the GD cardio. ...
Kill when you're hungry.
Eat 'til you're full.

Do the work.

What use is there...

Tired...
Don't feel like doing anything.

At the gym.
Ääähh... do I have to?
Chest and biceps.

...one more night and I can rest for two days.

Is it worth it?
What could I gain if I just went home and rested for 3 days?...

Hmmm.... it's sauna night (and I'm missing it Again) and baba is SO sweet all the time and we have a clean home and fresh salad and all I would need to do is an omelette with a hint of cheese before I hit the sofa and fight for the remote...
I'm SO tired :/

How will I get through this work out? It's even cold here... :/

...

The egg

I wrote a note to myself last night just before falling asleep: "Like drawings on the surface of an egg."

What was I thinking of?... I can't remember if I was wondering about our son or about my own life...

Uhh.

300kg x12

No spotter like last time...

I did it all by myself  :)

But why is it that after Every Heavy leg day the first night is Really easy and sometimes all the days after it are just as fun?

Is it because of the cardio I do?

Hah. "Cardio"... it's only 15 minutes per gym night.

Can't be That?!  Can it?

The Expendables

Stallone rocks :)

Last night I spent a good half of a dream helping  him get his Soda streamer bottle back from the bad guys. Loads of action, gun fights, mini helicopters flying all over the abandoned coal mines (massive caves)... oooh. That big Swede was there too... what's his name? Gosh, I hate it when I can't remember stuff. What's that brain malfunction called when you can't remember...

Aaargh. Just wait a bit! I know I got this!...
Hmmm...
Leslie, Luthor, Thor, ... he had a role in Rocky. I think he played a big Russian boxer.
Kurt, Leif... Lundgren! Yes!! Dolph!
Him! He was there in the same helicopter with me. He kept eating red licorice. Scary guy.
Kinda nuts.

5/12

(Edit later) Halfway point is here... 7 weeks left.
To me this +/-1week is as good as a "point" in time :)

Back day was a success! I even got a video of a set of rows I did with 65kg. I need my computer to post it.

Although my weight has "crashed" I still have a small hope that I'll gain it back by the end of this road. It was a good thing to notice that even with my lower bodyweight I could lift Much more than what I'm used to... much more.
I even had to stop experimenting with dumbbells because the number of sets would have been too much for the workout!  So I didn't even reach my limits!!! ;)

Cabin fever

I haven't yet felt any kind of craziness that might come with being a stay at home mom.

I quite enjoy being home and doing stuff with baba. We go on short trips almost daily and we see people  (friends and strangers).

It's my last night of GVT. I've saved the best for the last. 

It's Back day.

I've spent a good part of the day crawling around on the floor with baby. (Not the best prep for a back day)... He's So close to doing it by himself  <3

I've heard that babies go bananas when they learn to crawl!! :)

I hope I'm home when he gets it :)

We started a new "hobby" with the older boy.

I've been wanting to spend some Useful time with him (I just don't enjoy PS3 games or small cars too much)... so we started Home school :) 

I get to spend time with him and he has a chance to learn and Show his skills in writing, reading and math. There's no stress and plenty of great moments stuffed into that 30 minutes. And he gets a small reward for his work too.

Win - win.

;)

My mechanical baby

The weather's so bad I should get a refund for my Finnish passport...

But the car likes it. He's been throwing his sweet little ass around like he had a tutu on ;)

And on a low note:
:(

I tried a free sample of a new pre workout...
Didn't work.
I was yawning half way through my triceps.

I'll stick to what I know...

That Feeling

It will never go away.
I'm the fxcking King of this life.

I am not done.

:)

I haven't done Arnold presses for a while. Suddenly I can use 14kg weights :)

Find it.

Find the freedom inside You!

Never give up.

Show the world who You are!

Do you need a reason?

Can't do it?...

Try this:
Look at the problem.
Smile at it.
Say:"Just try an hold me back."
Do it.

It works every time.

No. It's not easy.

Like right now: last set of Arnold press.  On one side the guy's socks smell like rabbit glue. On the other side the guy's sweat is like anti air. I think I might die if I don't run. But I'm gonna finish. All the sets. All the reps.
Just try and hold me back.

Shoulders: killed.
Gains: coming soon ;)